The End 2.0.0.9

2009 ~ hermm...what do I has? seem not real but it is ..really going and reach the end of 2009.
Going to be 2000 and 10... oh yes..what did I do for my pass 10years?
hermm..finished my Secondary school life and like a funny backpack traveller go to Matriculation college alone..

Well, as usual pick up some thing that necessary, go up to the old school bus...to my dreamed Uni life..

finished 4years Uni life with lousy results.. :P oh yea...did I mentioned that I never used computer before I entry to Computer&Communications system engineering?what an idiot thought "to challenge myself".. well..I really get enough for my silly act.

Well, no use to blame rather just find a easy way to survive! hermm graduation...and what? working? what should I do and work as? with the lousy below 2.5 results??

but still I get my first job by recommend from Mr Tony..which is my manager when I was in Industry training. hehe am i doing a good jobs?? well..at least i am doing my best and "sincere" performance..

But I can't forever in Helpdesk...I need to jump out of the box..
hermm guess what? Doing network? "we don't need a lady here..U can't carry heavy router switches..." ... well I neither do i :P ..unless i have to do so..
Going to telco..."sorry informed you...you do not has this x that x experiences.."

arr....no..i won't be group in line of programmer...arrhh...never.. after I almost failed my C++, java.. wonder why must need to play with the language that you never going use when talking to people.. hermm...I don't want talk to machine.. I scared one day I will sit in front a washing machine and start talking...

sigh..sound like I don't have much choice right?

almost searching and interviewed many jobs in 1year! From excited till disappointed and give up...

A chance of chatting make a big changes! Mr Bernard ..
"eei...your company want hire people?..I send you resume.."
tang...tang... I am in my current company after 1 month :D ...

Well..I can't say I am able to buy big houses, big car..but at least no more worries!:D I used to superb worry about my monthly expenses and family needs...

It is really hard for me who without any experience in Wintel servers..But still i believe i can make it though.. and a shifting job...*:P i don't really like to sleep in office and public...* scared my snoring will scared out people's around:(..

But i still loved my current job as I can learn a lot from experts here and they willing provide me training and guidance's :D

Hehehe sound so good of my new job? hehe...give and take lo..i earned some but give in return is my times...Christmas..new year...
Sound so bad? not really la...i got claim back mah ..wakaka...

At the end...wish everybody Merry christmas and happy new year...

oh yea...wish me too ok? :P I'm so lonely in the office..and typing all these to you :P




Cheers!!!

失踪的日子

突然觉得终于可以停下来，好好的给自己休息休息一下。

好一阵子真的好忙好忙，忙得连去记起来的时间也没有，
所以，除了疲劳其他的都不大给记得了。

好一段时间的奔波，终于辞了那份对我意义重大的第一份工作！
在还没踏入社会前，那种种担心也是在那给我下了人生的定义和开始。

回忆起，想当年大学Industries Training原来是要自己给自己去找一份工作。
想起来还真冒汗，以当年的环境，还真不知道要去哪里找份工作。
找到快要给大学“卖猪仔”去当免费劳工时，MiTV Networks收留了。
就这样，在那打了三个月的工，从MiTV到Mi3G..

就一年后，就如约定的回去给旧老板打工。
可是那时已经成为了U Mobile018了，也多了好多的韩国老板。
^_^ 看见他们时，感觉自己像在韩国电影般。。有些还真帅叻！

可是在一年后，开始慢慢的知道自己要走的是什么方向。
知道自己一无是处也不行，为了一技之长，
狠下心肠，头破血流的要闯出去了！

跌跌撞撞的四处去给自己找个主人，
在别人选我时，我也斤斤计较的挑着。
回算起来，还真用了我好一段时间。。大概。。。八九个月吧！
过程真是残不回首，有的还真离谱到。。
有的看我皮够不够黑，有的好像屋顶比较好看，有的要看你的原产地(Only XX need to apply)，
有者还要问你老母。。。和老豆是不是在那打过工。 =P
还试过要online IQ test,hand writting,face2face,Technical test,写essay的．
最离谱的试过，来见我的是管钱的，问的跟答的就好像鸡跟鸭讲．．有够力的＝＿＝搞到他要找人来跟他翻译．

结果搞到我人都无力了．．

就要投降那刻，跟一个大学学弟聊了起来，随便问了＂你那要请人吗？＂
就这样无心插柳，柳成栽．很快有了消息，面了试．
抱着一尝的心态去试一试，也没抱多大的希望了，因为一大堆答不出来的问题．＊尴尬得很＊
不知是不是天可怜我一下下....竟然被录取了＝＿＝＂

就这样抱着怀疑与兴奋的心情开始了在Cyberjaya的生涯.

纵贯线 - 亡命之徒

听我说 我原来有个梦
跟你高飞远走 跟你一起走到白头
但是我 拥有化为乌有
忘记我们承诺 忘记曾经爱你爱的那么浓
我不能带你走 我犯了大错
必须一个人走 必须扛下所有罪过
必须离开熟悉的街口 请你不要忘记我
这夜里有小雨飘在空中
当我扣板机的瞬间 灵魂早已卖给魔鬼
可笑的是 我好想求主帮我赎回
赎回我那一丁点的尊严
想起妈妈的脸 对不起这几年
是否有机会再见你一面
妈妈我犯了错 你会原谅我吗?
我已经踏上了末路
别人眼中的亡命之徒 哪里还有我的藏身处?
我的兄弟 离我远去 我还傻呼呼的相信道义
所谓的人性莫非要用血和泪来换取教训
不想再混下去
想说干完这一票就不再撩下去
想着想着我的眼泪就流不停

出发啦 不要问那路在哪?
迎风向前 是唯一的方法
出发啦 不想问那路在哪?
运命哎呀 什么关卡?
当车声隆隆 梦开始阵痛
它卷起了风 重新雕塑每个面孔
夜雾那么浓 开阔也汹涌
有一种预感 路的终点是迷宫

喂 小子 我想我大概明白你的意思
那些发生在你身上的
曾经以不同的面貌 也在我生命里出现过好几次
对此 我并无更高明的解释
只是觉得今天说不定是个合适的日子
我们就各自用舒服的姿势
用擅长的方式 给人生我们的
不管是一种告解还是一份答辩词
人再有本事也难抵抗命运的不仁慈
这道理再简单不过 接不接受是另外一回事
真爱并非不来 它只是被无预警的恶意的延迟
不要让某个女人做的蠢事
变成你自己与自己的争执
为什么 该有的都有还是觉得不够
天呀 该不会是贪心的念头
为什么 拼了命地工作 拼了命地追梦
到头来原地没有动过
为什么 万里晴空下的面孔
庸庸碌碌不开心地锁着眉头 要向谁哭诉
为什么 想去看场电影
该死的台风偏偏选在每一个的周末
为什么 这个世界上 就是有人穷得发疯
有人富有 把钞票当作了枕头
为什么 新闻里 鼻酸故事 只为了
偷面包给妈妈 充饥的小偷
为什么 一百个为什么
变成一千个 一万个 十万个 为什么
为什么 我想破头写不出个鸟 念念念
我为了什么


我们都不必在意未来的样子
像是精神病患写的诗 或是烟花绽放的节日
随它去吧 我们都只活一次
呼吸呼吸呼吸 呼 一切曳然而止
真理在荒谬被证实以前 都只是暗室里的装饰
只有当眼前亮起来了以后
才有机会彰显它的价值 不是谁能决定的
该漫游还是冲刺
我们都在海里 我觉得我们像沙子
你说的亡命之徒 是不是大概就是这个意思

出发啦 不要问那路在哪(亡命之徒 可会全力以赴)
迎风向前 是唯一的方法(是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
出发啦 不想问那路在哪(亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴)
运命哎啊 什么关卡(喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)
当车声隆隆 梦开始阵痛(亡命之徒 可会全力以赴)
它卷起了风 重新雕塑每个面孔(是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
夜雾那么浓 开阔也汹涌(亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴)
有一种预感 路的终点是迷宫(喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)

出发啦 不要问那路在哪(亡命之徒 可会全力以赴)
迎风向前 是唯一的方法(是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
出发啦 不想问那路在哪(亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴)
运命哎啊 什么关卡(喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)
当车声隆隆 梦开始阵痛(亡命之徒 可会全力以赴)
它卷起了风 重新雕塑每个面孔(是不是穷途末路 有没有藏身之处)
夜雾那么浓 开阔也汹涌(亡命之徒 逃亡要全力以赴)
有一种预感 路的终点是迷宫(喘息在穷途末路 给我个藏身之处)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XT8l-CpscuA

溏心风暴 - 有家真好

看着有家的人们，病了可以回家给家人照顾，
工作累了，可以那假回一回家乡跟家人投诉。
在外受气了，还可以找家人数数别人的不是。

无家可归的流浪魂。。
每天只记得定时上班、延迟下班；
因为老板不喜欢看到我在七点前背书包回去。
好不容易等到七点半了，忽然没了回去的冲动，
原来不知道回去要干什么，

而且寄人篱下，感觉就没那么好；
无家可归的人要看人心情脸色做人，
晴天是可以多扒两口饭，
阴天是可以闪就赶快些，
如门忘了给锁上了，就要连埋在地底的祖宗都给数了出来。
自己命贱就算了，还要连累把我当宝的祖宗真是让我无脸下九泉就是了。

没人疼的人，脸皮厚就算了；
还要厚到给丢到太平洋去。

也不知道为什么让自己堕落成这样子，
没了自尊、没了骨子里的气。
搞得自我麻醉、自我安慰、自己给自己假希望。
当假希望一破灭，就像一个新借口自我安慰。

没了家， 没了尊严、没了骨气、遗失了自己。。

吊

写Blog很多时候大家都在东吊西吊。。

原来。。还是有歌唱的=_=!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1eeGCqsdxg&feature=player_embedded

男女平等

最近的脾气超有够味道的！
他*#￥%…的，什么叫男女平等嗄？

当人类被创造的那天早就定了的局面。
除了男女有别，肤色、背景。。
就连脑袋发达与否。。
这一切早在我们出世那刻就有了定论，
唯有心存不干的可怜人在做无惟挣扎。


下一辈子我一定要当当男人，
尝一下拥有特权的滋味。


现代的女性其实比以前活得更苦，
在外要一面女强人样，在家要有万能家庭主妇样，
但她们唯一欣慰的是自由了。
而且女人们也把知识装进脑袋了。


可是女人为何为难女人？
上一代的认为女人嘛，
认为嫁了就应该知趣点，
留在家里当个进得厨房，出的厅堂的女人。
男人说一就别说二，因为他们赚钱养家嘛。


这一代的男人就说嘛，
“亲爱的，你不工作我们养不起家嘛”
自认知识分子的女人认为，
我也是家里的一分子，分担一下很应该。
结果在外苦头吃不尽，回家还要扮笑脸。
社会把女人和男人的工作瓜分的清清楚楚，
当女人要把男女平等的头衔挂上时，
男人会说，你不行！这些是男生做的。
把女人都永远打在低层位，
女人怎么爬也只能帮头帮尾干些简单的工作，
把满怀大志的沦落为心灰意冷。



心身疲倦的女人回到家里，
上一代女眷就大耍领家本领、大演龙凤，
批头评足来一解终日无聊和显现自家威风。

最终，女人搞得两头不到岸，
有苦无处诉，自己苦了自己。

赤壁

呵吖。。。有够无奈的！
我体外肥饱安详，但体内在上演赤壁叻！
我的天啊。。。。。
左边的〈生活〉跟右边的〈原则〉打到。。阿妈也认不到了。
原则：“你这个没有尊严的东西，为了生活就可以那么的犯溅违背良心的去干你不喜欢的东西吗？”
生活：“你这就以为我很想吗？可是你说饿、要车子、要漂亮的衣服。。！！”
原则：“可你就更本忘了我们共同拥有的梦想！花了一年时间什么也没做到！”
生活：“那好啊！我们就去跟你而活，看你到月尾时如何去解决我的费用！”

结果，气直理壮的原则败给了生活

我的工作~

哇呀。。累到要死了，最近的工作可真的可累得我五马分尸！！
回到家快要八九点了，洗个澡、随便吃点都快要十点了。
双脚不停的走，双手不停的干活，背部也不知搞什么的在闹革命！！！
一躺上床，不出五秒就可以听见我“呼噜噜。。呼噜噜。。。”

噢。。。八点钟了。。迟到啦！！！

就这样的在重复的每一天。

呜呜。。。现在是十一点多了。
好累。。明天再来！要去睡了。













=_=!! 无聊到吧？ 这就是我的毕业后的生涯。

Do you hear me? 芭蕾舞者的骄傲

一个挺尖脚尖小女人，在大家的眼里她是多么的骄傲、高贵、美丽。
麻了小脚、咬紧了牙根、弃了疼痛、拼了命把自己给挺得让人们把眼对她向上望。


芭蕾舞者，总是一个人在角落默默地练习。
为了光荣的一刻，把痛苦都默默承受着。
咬着牙根一步步地走着，却脸带笑容的撑着。


小小脚跟的道理也和女人的人生一样。
很努力的把高跟鞋给踩在脚下。
为了美丽与坚强的外表都很狠心的忍着。

高跟鞋的痛，只会停留在穿鞋者心里。
这一些，可说每人都懂，
可却无人懂，一双小小高跟鞋却告诉女人们懂得这就是人生的道理。

在工作挨骂了，不要紧，我踩的高跟鞋比你骂的还要痛呢。
在爱情失败了，不要紧，我还是能忍着的、因为明天我还是漂亮的踩着我的高跟呢。
处处碰钉子了，不要紧，总有一天我还是会像芭蕾舞者一样的让人对我羡望的那刻。



所以女人们， 你们听到你的高跟鞋要跟你说的话了吗？

欲望男女

欲望男女，千奇百怪，为了讨好异性，性感内衣、扑鼻香水买不停，连床上必杀绝技也得练就一番！令人鼻酸的是，有些人即使刻意搔首弄姿，也不一定能魅力四射。其实展现魅力，不一定要撒大钱，花大力气，有时
生活中不经意的小动作，就已经可以煞死人了！

　　1.拨头发　
　　拨动头发，散发出迷人的发香，好像闻到迷魂散，可以让所有男人魂飞魄散，很多女人自然的会有这个小动作，无心之失惹得男人心花怒放，真是sorry啰！
男人语录:“拨弄头发的感觉很自然、优雅，给人无限的想像空间。”


　　2.双腿交叉坐姿
双腿交叉最易引人遐想，尤其是穿着短裙的时候，坐在对座的人都很期待看到交换交叉双腿的那一刻。
男人语录:“女生的坐姿很重要，这样的坐姿最优雅，所以最性感。”


　　3.站着穿鞋
站着穿鞋时单脚着地，自然站得不稳，摇摇欲坠的，会让男人想去扶一把。
男人语录:“女生站着穿鞋，可以展现出优美的线条。”


4.吃水果
女人吃水果舌头自然伸出，性感得不得了。尤其是吃樱桃的时候，舌尖轻轻抵触，肯定让人血脉贲张。想要讨好男人，下次将整个食物尽可能慢慢放进口中，一定让男人当场下跪。
男人语录:“吃水果的时候嘴型很性感，会让人想要亲一下。”


　　5.按摩小腿
这个动作大家都会做，在办公室中女同事若按摩小腿最性感，玉手不停的抚摸小腿，令男人血脉沸腾。
男人语录:“女人按摩腿时，会让人的注意力都集中在美腿，很性感。”
　　

　　6.伸懒腰
女人伸懒腰，慵懒的感觉就像小猫，让人想要抱抱，而且伸懒腰可以自然地展现出女人身体的线条，胸部凸出，男人即死。
男人语录:“因为，慵懒的体态让人觉得很舒服。”


　　7.调整内衣肩带
女人调整肩带，在男人的眼中就似当着他的面宽衣解带，自然期待着妳的另一边肩带也一起滑落，最容易引起男人的性幻想。
男人语录:“从来没看过有人当众这样做，我只看过我妈的内衣，所以，我觉得这样很容易让人胡思乱想，哈！”


8.吃冰淇淋
　　看到女人用舌头顺着甜筒的形状，慢慢地由下舔到上，保证所有男人把持不住。以后吃冰淇淋的时候请注意一下自己的吃相，不然可是会让男人眼睛吃冰淇淋咧！
　　男人语录:“吃冰的甜美表情很有吸引力。”


9.穿迷你裙上楼梯
　　上楼梯时前面走着一位穿著迷你裙的妹妺，相信所有的男人都希望可以走得慢一点，永远不要到楼梯的尽头，人类偷窥的本能自然而然就会表现出来。
　　男人语录:“上楼的时候如果前面有一个穿迷你裙的妹妹，在后面的就会想要弯下腰去看个究竟，如果看到小裤裤，就真的赚到了。”


10.用舌头舔嘴唇
　　通常做出这个动作，就是直接在挑逗对手的时候了，男人看到肯定飘飘然。
　　男人语录:“女人如果当着我的面做这个动作，我会觉得她根本就在邀请我。”

　　
后记:

　　人们一度普遍认为，女人露出乳沟或摇摆臀部等更为挑逗的动作，应该是大家心目中的冠军；但事实并未如此。 真正到外面找路人问，你会发现大多数的人选择安全性最高的动作，认为拨发最性感，极少数人会坦
白选择较挑逗或煽情的姿势，由此可知多数男人表面上是比女人虚假的。

车祸与明天

今天，路过Sg Besi Highway 时看到了一让我不能睡下的一幕。
路边站了三两个人，几辆电单车和一辆小货车。
地上躺了一个满身血、没了上衣又一动也不动的中年男人。
那男人身边的人群，并没有太激动。现场也没有救护车或警察。

我不懂了？带着傻着的脑袋经过这一幕，回到我每天例行的事。
为什么？怎么发生这样的事人们也没有多大的激动？
就这样的想了一整天。
会不会是太简单了？或是没什么特别？
还是因为“死”没什么大不了？！

电单车、流满的血、不动的躯体。。
我也是电单车骑士。。
如果那一个是我，会是怎样的？
如果我没有知觉的躺在哪，会是怎样的？

好可怕！不敢再想却一直在想。

今天我不可能预测明天，
也不可能担保能到达我未来的那一天。
很忽然的让我想起我的活着原则，
“活着今天就别让明天后悔！”

很深奥？！
那就好像我不知道明年的今天， 我是不是真的有机会在跟弟妹团圆？！
约好了将来要家好月圆，谁也不能知道真的会实现么？
就有如你总爱答应我，你现在不能给我，但以后会。。
可是“现实”让我很讨厌“以后”。。
因为以后我无法预测。


R.I.P 给你祈祷与祝福。

~学会生活~

把咖啡放一旁、心里绞痛阁在一边。
想要好好放自己假。。
家里、工作压力让自己给自己放了个休假。。







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忙碌的日子，让我忘了原来我长大了。
生活的脚步，犹如火车般停不下来。。
到了二十多岁，活得有如家里的杠杠。
背着的包袱，加得忘记要停下呼吸。

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听着甜美声音，才想起原来曾经爱唱歌；
曾经有梦过，拿起吉他疯狂的尽情唱弹；
也幻想过，背起背包一个人流浪看世界；
可最终，却停留在痛苦与生存边缘挣扎。

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没有了梦，没了生活；
学习会了无时无刻面对突发事件；
学会冷静面对压力与欺压；
了解此刻活着的重要；
体会真实的人间冷暖；
知道该如何保护自己；
享受为自己而活的快感；
也学会了粗言秽语发泄；
懂得活着就会有不一样的明天

Life is so Ironic..

曾经，有个网友告诉我“you life is really Ironic" 我说不懂什么意思， 他想了好久，终于把这首歌给我找来。。。


An old man, turned 98
He won the lottery, and died the next day
It's a black fly in your chardonnay
It's a death row pardon, two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic?
Don't you think?

It's like rain, on your wedding day
It's a free ride, when you've already paid
It's the good advice, that you just didn't take
And who would've thought? It figures

Mr. Play-It-Safe, was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase, and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life, to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought, "Well isn't this nice?"
And isn't it ironic?
Don't you think?

It's like rain, on your wedding day
It's a free ride, when you've already paid
It's the good advice, that you just didn't take
And who would've thought? It figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out
When you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face

A traffic jam, when you're already late
A "No smoking" sign, on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons, when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams, and then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic?
Don't you think?
A little too ironic?
Yeah I really do think


It's like rain, on your wedding day
It's a free ride, when you've already paid
It's the good advice, that you just didn't take
And who would've thought?
It figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
And life has a funny, funny way, of helping you out
Helping you out

The song that stayed with me tonight

"Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

To Keep Your Flower Life Time Longer

The 3rd day after my convo..i already can see my flower start getting dry and rotten..
wu wa...my flower (~.~)"



From this~


To ~



end up like this~















and i need to protect the flower from my junior ~




So i asked my SIFU ~~ :P GOOGLE.COM

i get this..i hope it work=.=""

Water, water, water
Make sure there is always plenty of water in your vase. Remember that they have been cut from their roots will be very fast to dry out once they sense that their water source is gone. Go ahead and fill the vase all the way to the top, it's better to have more than enough water then for your buds to go dry.

Trim the stems
When you first bring the bunch home the first thing you need to think about is trimming the stems to get rid of any already dried out area. You will need a sharp pair of shears to cut off about an inch of stem. Make sure you cut in a diagonal angle, this way there is more surface area to soak up more water. Make sure to remove any leaves that are too low, you don't want any to be submerged in the water, they will encourage the growth of bacteria.

Room to stretch out
Don't try to make a dozen roses fit into a bud vase. Not only is that an unpleasant sight, but it's not healthy for the flowers. They need room to move and bloom without being competing, and you need to be able to fill that vase with enough water to last at least all day or longer if you'll be away.

Keep them cool
Did you ever notice that when you go to purchase flowers they are usually kept in a refrigerator or at least in a very controlled temperature? That is because when they are kept cool, they will last longer. Warm air warms the water and encourages nasty bacteria growth which will take time off your bouquets life span.
Try not to keep yours in direct sunlight or near any appliance that generates heat.

Change their water
It is best to change the water in your vase every day or at least every other day. If the water sits more than that, our little enemy bacteria will return. Try to keep the water fresh, your flowers will thank you for it tremendously.

And my add on with this step~~
Cut flowers can be kept fresh for a longer time by recutting the stems at an angle under gently flowing water from the tap before putting them in fresh, lukewarm water. Also, adding a crushed aspirin to the water has been known to help, or a few drops of bleach. It also helps to change the water in the vase every day or every other day.

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No Matter how beauty of flower..one day still will be the same.
Atleast it still keep the beauty of it.. @>;-

~说话的艺术~

急事，慢慢的说；
大事，清楚的说；
小事，幽默的说；
没把握的事，谨慎的说；
没发生的事，不要胡说；
做不到的事，别乱说；
伤害人的事，不能说；
不开心的事，找对对象说；
开心的事，看场合说；
伤心的事，不要见人就说；
别人的事，小心的说；
自己的事，听听别人怎样说；
尊长的事，多听少说；
夫妻的事，商量着说；
孩子的事，开导着说。

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简短的讯息，但却是很好的说理。
就算自己也没法办到100% (#^_^)

Little story of Life

Is very simple, but yet very true.

Yes ThIs iS mE~

I am freshgrad,
I am 23 years old,
I am not a sweet girl,
I don't have a sweet voice,
I use obscene language,
I clear my bank draft every month,
I finish my studies with own forces,
I don't have a car,
I don't have a house neither,
I don't have hometown,
I have a broken family,
I have a family to bear,
I work for survive,
I need look after 3 sisters and my mum,
I am lucky cause my bro start working,
I don't like to talk bout my family,
I never kena TOTO "~_~" 20mil,
I hate the life sometimes,
I hate to be poor,
I hate talk to idiot,
I face pressure not fear,
I stand hard for my own right,
I lost my own life for others,
I face new problem every single day,
I don't know what can make me smile,
I don't know what is relax,
I don't know what is comfort life,
I don't know what is happy family,
I feel like burning & keep bleeind,
I don't know what I should do to make me release from suffering....

It's life?

arghh....again, I get the same reply from a forum friend.

.."It's Life"..

It's not the first time I get this comment from friend, is thousands of times!!

These few days, I starting to ask myself, "WHY? Why? why?.."
Why is me??? Am I doing too much bad things in my previous life??
If do so, I must be very very very devil person in my previous life!!!

Looked at my friends, wow...they are so happy ~.~, all the news from them are ..
"ooh...do you knew that ah who who who buying a new car? erm...who who already go make a new hair style..and who who who going to straighten their hair"

=.= why why why? I'm also freshgrad, also taking the same salary, why am I is under MCG??
aka ("Monthly Clear Group")

Every time go to ATM I would be under the BIG Sweating group =.=
gosh..... paying accommodation rents for me and sis, my transport fees, 2 sister's bus fees, sister pocket money, and my...my..... huh...can't remember all but what I remember now is my PTPTN NOT YET START PAYING ...god!! *pensang*
What a peasant salary minus EPF minus Socso ... *fall down and fainted again*

Then again, my ultimate version of moon cake series family problem is killing me softly~~


21 Oct a day that seem so far yet so close to me....

After 4 years of suffering...A BIG day to announce to myself "It's Ending"
Huhu...I wish I won't be crying on that day, 4 years!! 4 years.....
a sweet and suffer memories there...most important is ..
all done by my own, from matriculation college to Uni.
hehe...suddenly remember me of the first day I going to Uni, catch up a bus ticket from friend, packing few shirt, and start my journey to my future ... (n_n) now think back...really a "salute" to myself!!!

erm...lately was thinking where should I say when others ask me " where is your hometown?"

*start trace back memory* I am from :

Born in my mama tummy (9 months) -> teluk Intan,Perak (4 or 5 years)-> Singapore( few months or more ) -> Padang Rengas, Perak (2 years) -> Bukit Mertajam, Penang ( 9 years)-> Kepala Batas, Penang ( 1 year) -> Serdang, Selangor ( 4 years ++ - current).

So where I belong to?? But the only thing I know, I still belong to the earth :D still not moving to space yet .. hehe :D I wish my next station won't be Malaysia again...i want going out from MY to my dreaming land... okok just dream for now..*after look into my pocket and ATM slip again*


Huh...this post too long for reading rite? ok stop now, continue in next post! cheers d(n_n)b

*wish I could write down my ultimate version mooncake series* it's a loooong loooong story.